NASSO TORAH : NUMBERS 4:21-7:89 | PROPHETS : JUDGES 13:2-25| GOSPEL : LUKE 1:11-20


Finding Messiah in Naso, Numbers 4:21-7:89

And, isn’t it all about finding our Messiah in all the Tanak, and the Gospels? This week’s Torah portion is not an easy one, there are so many twists and turns!!! Sometimes it just doesn’t make any sense, how on earth does one see Him in such a maze and haze? The woman’s jealous husband, the crazy ritual to prove her innocent…or guilty…and the outcome of going through this ritual. I am no bible scholar, I am learning right along with you….but I wanted to share with you some thoughts and some things I found while doing my rabbit hole dive…

Understanding the Sotah Ritual | My Jewish Learning

John 8 - what do you think our Messiah was writing in the sand regarding the woman caught in adultery? - Quora

 

What is the Aaronic Blessing? – Summer Setting

Maybe, just maybe, you, like me, have done some pretty bad things while living as an addictive addiction. When I got clean and sober, and the cloud began to lift, the shame and guilt was enormous! I was steered to Alcoholics Anonymous by Yours Truly, and it was there that I began my healing process. Putting the plug in the jug and the drugs down was only the first step. There were many other steps, one of which was facing those things…those things I had done while living as an addict. Those activities I found myself involved in while out of my mind, under the influence. Like adultrey. That was only one of the many sins I commited.

I can tell you this, teshuva is bitter sweet! Going through the process of being open and honest about all those sexual sins commited over the course of years, brought such freedom. Forgiving myself was very difficult, I must say. Going to Yeshua (Jesus at the time) and laying it all down, accepting His punishment was humbling.

As I attempt to dive deeper into His word, every Torah cycle I learn more. This year was an amazing revelation of how He drank the bitter cup that the adultrous wife in this weeks Torah portion drank.

When the woman was dragged before Him in John 8:1-11..is Isreal and He wrote in the sand of the temple, just like the dirt from the floor was mixed with water and herbs she had to drink.

He died so the adultrous woman was free to marry again…He rose a new Man in order for her to marry Him…again…

Freedom…this is where we find Him in this weeks Torah portion!

Isn’t that refreshing? Isn’t that amazing? He came and died for our sins…yes, but it is so much more! It goes so much deeper!

I hope this has been a blessing to you, please do your own digging, because I am still learning as you are!

He is able to cleanse us all from all our sins, with the blood of the Lamb shed on the stake, for me, and for you!

Shalom!

A word from our big brother Judah on this weeks Torah portion!

Reacting to Another’s Downfall – Naso

“A man or a woman who sets himself apart by making a nazirite vow to abstain for the sake of G‑d”—Numbers 6:2.

In the book of Numbers (chs. 5–6) we learn of the laws of the sotah (suspected adulteress) and the nazir (one who takes a vow which involves abstention from wine). While outwardly these two subjects share nothing in common, the fact that Scripture places them one after the other indicates an underlying correlation. The sages explained the connection between these two sections as follows: “Why is the section dealing with the suspected adulteress related just before the section dealing with one who takes a nazirite vow? To teach you that whoever observes such a woman in her disgrace should forswear wine.”

Witnessing another’s downfall says as much about the one who sees it as about the one actually going through itOn a simple level, one may interpret this teaching to mean that when one beholds someone who is in a state of spiritual ruin, the observer is reminded of the general frailty of human nature and should thus take precautions to prevent his own moral downfall. However, this interpretation raises a question. If observing someone else’s moral failure serves as a stark reminder of our own weaknesses, then why is there a need to also take on a specific vow? Just seeing another person in a state of disgrace should be a sufficiently forceful reminder that the observer must be watchful of his own conduct as well.

The Baal Shem Tov, the founder of the Chassidic movement, explained that one never “just happens” to observe something. Witnessing another person’s downfall says as much about the one who sees it as about the one actually going through it. Despite whatever wrong the other person may have done, the very fact that the observer is so keenly aware of the other’s sinful behavior is an indication of his own glaring defect—a readiness to see impropriety in his fellow. Thus, say the sages, the person who takes notice of the grave failings of others should forswear the drinking of wine. It was not by chance that he set eyes on his fellow in an unseemly position, but rather because of his own predisposition toward spotting such things.

It seems that the sages knew quite a bit about us alcoholics. Who has been as ready to find fault in others as we have been? Who has been as indignant toward the shortcomings of others? Recovery has taught us that whenever we see bad in someone else, our reaction must not be the self-righteous anger to which we had once felt entitled, but to assess our own spiritual condition.

There was a time when seeing how others were doing wrong made us feel more holy. In sobriety, we work toward the day when—in true holiness—we will see only goodness in all of our fellows.

Newsletter One/January 2022/Step One


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                                                                                 Shalom!

Welcome to the first newsletter! Each month we will be exploring a step from the 12 steps of recovery. I will also provide resources in every newsletter. If you have questions please feel free to reach out to me at moderndaysamaratin@gmail.com, I will help you anyway that I can.

Let’s get started!

Recovery? What is that?

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I like this definition, it breaks down different areas of our lives to address. For those who are desiring to address the inner brokenness, for some, this will bring clarity. Step two is all about clarity, but, for now, we are going to focus on Step One. For step one work, we must first admit that there is a lack of balance in our lives. Excessive drinking /drugging/sexing/ gaming/ sporting, etc  is only a few symptoms of brokenness. We are striving to recover balance and shalom in our lives.

(For information on who SAMHSA is, please see link below.)

So, let’s get stated with step one

Helpful Documents | Southeast Texas ACA Intergroup

According to Marriam Webster:

pow·​er·​less | \ ˈpau̇(-ə)r-ləs  \

Definition of powerless

1devoid of strength or resources…powerless victims
2lacking the authority or capacity to act…was powerless to help
Think of being an innocent little child while the caretakers are raging, abusing, drinking and out of control…or seeing a sibling abused, or a parent being abused by the other parent/caretaker.
I'm the one who wants the help. I've lost so many friend over the past 2 yrs since entering recovery… | Helpless quotes, Feeling helpless quotes, Apologizing quotesPeople who believe that everyone else is in control of their: OwnQuotes.com
Helpless Quotes. QuotesGram
Step 1 part 3 - Unmanageability - YouTube

For mSam's Story — Druglinkore info on Adult Children   of Alcoholics/ Dysfunctional Families check this out!

http://setexasaca.org/helpful-documents/

Using drugs, alcohol and other substances and/or process addictions such as pornography, exercise, religion is only a symptom of what is going on below the surface. I like to use the illustration of an iceberg.

addiction-trauma-iceberg - A hangover free life

Growing up in a less than nurturing home can create trauma. Many children are abused in various forms. Many times one thinks of severe abuse such as child rape/molestation when hearing childhood abuse. According to the A.C.E. studies, the impact of other less severe abuse leaves deep wounds. See below for links for further education on the ACE study.Signs of neglect - Eschool

 

Emotional Abuse: Signs, Impact, and Measures| Stop Suffering in Silence

 

Emotional abuse: the silent killer - The State Press

Child Abuse and Neglect: Recognizing, Reporting, and Responding in Early Childhood Ally Burr-Harris, Ph.D. Greater St. Louis Child Traumatic Stress Program. - ppt video online download

So, you see, there is much under the surface of the addiction. Addictions are a way of numbing out the voices in ones head, of numbing out the shame and pain of what happened, often in the younger, formative years.

Many folks who come into the Torah movement not only carry with them twisted doctrines of men, but also twisted images of themselves and Yahweh. I know I did! And, I am still in recovery from my own stuff from childhood, my teen years, my 20’s and onward until I reached my bottom!

I admitted I was powerless and my life was unmanageable! Even after a college degree, credentials as a substance abuse counselor, certification as a recovery coach and a peer advocate. Even after years of therapy…and even years in the 12 steps of AA, NA and Alanon…whoa! Wait, what???

Yes, it was not until I came into His Ancient Paths that the real freedom came. After I detoxed from man made medications such as Xanax, Trazadone, and Oxycodone. I unplugged from everything and everyone and began crying out to Him to show me His real truth. On this journey to wholeness, I also found the 12 step support group of Adult Children of Alcoholics and Dysfunctional Families.  That was the key! It was not about the addiction! It was the trauma, buried deep within me. It was that little girl that was beaten and molested, rejected and abandoned, even by herself!

Yes, I even rejected and abandoned myself. That is what I learned as a little person. I learned at a very young age that I was unworthy of love and respect. I as a female, therefore inferior.

Maybe you can relate. Maybe not. Or, maybe denial is still playing with the mind.

We admit…we see, we surrender.

To the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.

Surrendering – For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it.Surrendering – For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it.Surrendering – For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it.

If you are interested in hearing my show on Hebrew Nations Radio, here is the link:

https://hebrewnationonline.com/

My other blog:

https://healingforthenationswithamoderndaysamaritanwoman.wordpress.com/

https://www.samhsa.gov/about-us

https://www.cdc.gov/violenceprevention/aces/about.html

Welcome

Until Next Time…shalom!!!

YITRO TORAH : EXODUS 18:1-20:23| PROPHETS : ISAIAH 6:1-7:6, 9:5-6| GOSPEL : MATTHEW 19:16-26


Welcome to another Torah Portion! This week is another amazing story of how the Israelites journeyed through their own rabbit trail! I hope you are blessed by this weeks message…as usual, we also are going to go on a rabbit trail!

The Danger Of Going Down Rabbit Trails - p.s. That's Life!

Yitro

Yahweh gave His 10 ways of doing life (what is commonly called The Ten Commandments) to Moses on the top of Mount Sinai. In the recovery community we have the 12 steps and 12 traditions. These steps and traditions are a way of life…what I really like about the recovery community is that we KNOW we CANNOT do life alone, we cannot heal alone…we need a community of people who are also on this journey to the heart of the Father. Safe people who are doing their best to abide by the guidelines. The traditions are what keeps the group safe and running smoothly.

 

Moses and Jethro - She Reads Truth -She Reads Truth

Adonai has His Torah, condensed into those 10 commandments. Its His love language. It is to be our love language also. Loving Him and our neighbor…as we love ourselves…problem is, too many of us have never been taught how to love ourselves, to honor ourselves, to take care of ourselves, how to set boundaries. Many are workaholics, among other types of addictions/ways coping. Or people pleasing. Many women have had their childhoods stolen, forced to be in a parenting role to compensate for their absent parent(s). Reparenting is often needed.

But, before one gets there, one needs to admit there is a problem and they need help…many cannot ask for help. Step one: WE admitted we were powerless over (fill in the blank) and our lives are unmanageable OR We admitted we were powerless over the effects of growing up in an alcoholic/dysfunctional family and our lives have become unmanageable.

You see folks, we got some problems in our community and seems like way too many leaders are not addressing these issues…issues such as domestic abuse in all its various forms,  child abuse, all sorts of addictions, religious addiction included, and not to mention the demonic activity loosened upon us. Nope, not enough people who have admitted and done the work to get free in order to free others!

 

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Big Brother Judah on the 12 steps of recovery…

Foundations for attaining life-long recovery.

First published in 1939 in the book titled Alcoholics Anonymous, the Twelve Steps were developed by the founders of AA as a method of recovery from alcoholism. It has since been adapted to address a myriad of compulsive and obsessive behaviors ― either addiction to substances like narcotics, or a process, such as gambling.

More than 50 different programs have evolved during the past 70 years, with millions of people across the globe having directly benefited from 12-step recovery.

Because much of 12-step recovery exists within the confines of anonymous group meetings, it’s difficult to evaluate in a controlled, peer-review process. Therefore, some in the medical and scientific communities are hesitant to testify to ifs effectiveness over other, more clinical approaches. However, ask most people who have spent significant time in the “rooms of recovery” and they will tell you they didn’t stand a chance to succeed prior to engaging in twelve-step help.

Judaism has been teaching 12 steps for 3,000 years.

Interestingly, the Twelve Steps is built on a paradigm of self growth that Judaism has been teaching for 3000 years.

The first thing that sticks out upon delving into the Twelve Steps is that the addictive behavior is mentioned only once ― in Step One: “We admitted we were powerless over fill in the blank ― that our lives had become unmanageable.” No where else do the steps directly speak about the compulsive habit, for the founders of AA understood addiction to be a three-fold disease:

  • Physical: intense cravings.
  • Emotional: using the behavior as a medication and distraction for dealing with challenging issues in life.
  • Spiritual/intellectual: Not accessing God to help arrest the behavior; stubbornly thinking I can do it on my own.

Therefore, the solution needs to include these three aspects of recovery:

  • Physical: a complete cessation from the action.
  • Emotional: developing healthy coping skills to address difficult situations.
  • Spiritual/intellectual: Humbly understanding that I am powerless over this behavior and asking God to do for me what I can not do for myself.

The sages have taught that this prototype is the foundation for both individual and global existence.

Shimon the Righteous says: the world stands on three things – on Torah (spiritual/intellectual), on service (physical) and on kind deeds (emotional).” Ethics of our Fathers, 1:2. The process of teshuva (self-growth and repentance) is rooted in these three pillars of our being.

  • Intellect can be directed either toward arrogance, or humility (and connection with the Creator).
  • Emotions can serve jealousy and selfishness, or loving-kindness and caring for others.
  • Physical instincts can be let loose toward lust and self indulgence, or restrained and channeled for a higher purpose.

Rabbi Elazar HaKapper says: jealousy, lust and arrogance remove a person from the world,” Ethics of our Fathers, 4:28.

Judaism teaches us that a person has three ongoing relationships at which he must excel: 1. with himself; 2. with others; 3. with God.

A relationship with self means an honest assessment of my character strengths and defects, awareness of my purpose for living, and taking responsibility for my actions.

A relationship with others translates into fulfilling my unique role in this world, how I can benefit others, and being aware of the impact I have on those with whom I have contact.

A relationship with God connects me to the Infinite Power in this world, tapping into ultimate pleasure and allowing me to humbly see my place in the grand scheme of creation.

STEPS ONE TO THREE

Looking through this prism, we can see how the Twelve Steps address these three relationships in the recovery process.

Step one: “We admitted we were powerless over fill in the blank ― that our lives had become unmanageable.”Step two: Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

Step three: Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.

The steps begin with an intense self awareness and admission as to the root of the problem ― an inability to change the behavior through willpower alone, and acknowledging the consequences of my conduct (step one: man’s relations to self).

Steps two and three transition to man’s relationship with God, first recognizing that the Creator of the Universe can in fact change my behavior (step two) if I take the requisite actions (step three). Simply put: “I can’t. He can. I think I’ll let Him.

Some erroneously argue that admitting powerlessness runs contrary to Judaism’s characterization of free will ― “If I truly set my mind to something, I will be able to conquer any challenge.”

The Talmud, however, tells us just the opposite. We are taught that a person’s yezter hara (evil inclination) grows stronger and renews itself every day. And without God’s help, we are powerless to overcome it. (Kidushin 30b)

A fundamental Jewish tenet is that everything is in the hands of the Almighty except for fear of Heaven (Berachot 33b). The sole autonomy we possess in this world is perception (yireh)- – to see ourselves in relation to the Creator of the Universe, with the subsequent awe that results from that observation. We have the freedom of choice, but it’s entirely up to the Almighty to allow that choice to successfully develop into action.

The disease of addiction is nothing less than the yezter hara, the lower self, as it manifests in those people given this particular challenge in life. Without God’s help, we are truly powerless.

STEPS FOUR TO SEVEN

Step four: Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.Step five: Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.

Step six: Were entirely ready to have God remove our shortcomings.

Step seven: Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.

The recovery process continues with a courageous and comprehensive personal inventory (cheshbon hanefesh). Step four focuses on, among other things, the challenges of arrogance, selfishness, and indulgence that are often found in an addict while in the throes of compulsive behavior.

Acknowledging these character defects to ourselves, to God and talking them out with another person well versed in recovery is critical in correcting the conduct. This is not confession, or seeking absolution, as some mistakenly conclude. Rather, it’s a three-fold method of identifying and concretizing specific flaws in order to construct an effective action plan. It’s anything but lip service.

Spiritual accountability is a bedrock in Judaism for character development. Working with a partner (chavrusa), or a rabbi to speak out issues and devise strategies for improvement is an encouraged practice (steps four and five: man’s relationship to self).

In steps six and seven we again see a transition to man’s relationship with God. We recognize that He is the source of success in achieving our spiritual growth and we are enjoined to be proactive in requesting that assistance.

STEPS EIGHT TO TEN

Step eight: Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.Step nine: Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.

Step ten: Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.

How can we ask God to forgive us if we’re not accountable for our actions?

Responsibility for our interactions with others is clearly delineated in these three steps. Addictive behavior can take a toll on people far and near the addict. Recovery is in large part a healing process, not only within ourselves, but for any relationship we may have adversely affected.

The universal custom for Jews to identify schisms with those close to us and to ask for forgiveness is a staple of our pre-Yom Kippur activities. How can we ask our Creator to forgive us if we’re not willing to be accountable for our actions with others?

STEPS 11 AND 12

Step eleven: Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.Step twelve: Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics/drug addicts/compulsive overeaters/compulsive gamblers etc..and to practice these principles in all our affairs.

The steps culminate in collective responsibility to continue investing in our individual connection with God, as well as our communal obligation to use our recovery to help others. Simply put: “You can’t keep it unless you give it away.” As Maimonides teaches, the highest level of fulfilling the mitzvah to Love God is to enable others to do the same.

We see a synopsis of our three-fold relationships in these final two steps. Strong, long-term recovery requires a consistent focus on physical abstinence from the addictive substance or behavior, as well as continual attention to emotional and spiritual growth. Complacency is a capital crime when it comes to addiction.

In truth, it’s a fatal sentence for all of us, addicts or not. The only guarantee we have in this life is death, and therefore every moment is a precious opportunity for growth. This realization, perhaps, flattens a final roadblock some might encounter before engaging in 12-step recovery.

I already have a religion, I don’t need this. It’s not from a Jewish source.

The founders of AA were extremely careful to distance this process from any organized religion for fear of turning away an alcoholic that might otherwise benefit. They understood that only through a physical, emotional and spiritual course of action could one attain life-long recovery from the dreaded disease of addiction.

As Jews, this certainly resonates with us. Not, God forbid, as a substitute for our mitzvah observance. But rather as a tool to enhance our Jewish practice and relationship with the Almighty. Does Judaism by itself possess the necessary tools for self growth and improvement? Absolutely!

However, addicts can certainly benefit from a process designed specifically to address the immense challenge that for so long has baffled so many. Numerous Jews who have entered the rooms of recovery battling multitude addictions testify to the betterment of their Jewish observance by the removal of the cloud of compulsive behavior.

We…We…We…it’s a WE program…a WE journey to the heart of the Father…

The Commandments, The Steps and The Traditions

Tradition One of Alcoholics Anonymous:

Our common welfare should come first;
personal recovery depends upon A.A. unity.”

THE unity of Alcoholics Anonymous is the most cherished quality our Society has. Our lives, the lives of all to
come, depend squarely upon it. We stay whole, or A.A.
dies. Without unity, the heart of A.A. would cease to beat;
our world arteries would no longer carry the life-giving
grace of God; His gift to us would be spent aimlessly. Back
again in their caves, alcoholics would reproach us and say,
“What a great thing A.A. might have been!”
“Does this mean,” some will anxiously ask, “that in
A.A. the individual doesn’t count for much? Is he to be
dominated by his group and swallowed up in it?”
We may certainly answer this question with a loud
“No!” We believe there isn’t a fellowship on earth which
lavishes more devoted care upon its individual members;
surely there is none which more jealously guards the individual’s right to think, talk, and act as he wishes. No A.A.
can compel another to do anything; nobody can be punished or expelled. Our Twelve Steps to recovery are
suggestions; the Twelve Traditions which guarantee A.A.’s
unity contain not a single “Don’t.” They repeatedly say “We
ought . . .” but never “You must!”
To many minds all this liberty for the individual spells
sheer anarchy. Every newcomer, every friend who looks at
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A.A. for the first time is greatly puzzled. They see liberty
verging on license, yet they recognize at once that A.A. has
an irresistible strength of purpose and action. “How,” they
ask, “can such a crowd of anarchists function at all? How
can they possibly place their common welfare first? What
in Heaven’s name holds them together?”
Those who look closely soon have the key to this
strange paradox. The A.A. member has to conform to the
principles of recovery. His life actually depends upon obedience to spiritual principles. If he deviates too far, the
penalty is sure and swift; he sickens and dies. At first he
goes along because he must, but later he discovers a way of
life he really wants to live. Moreover, he finds he cannot
keep this priceless gift unless he gives it away. Neither he
nor anybody else can survive unless he carries the A.A.
message. The moment this Twelfth Step work forms a
group, another discovery is made—that most individuals
cannot recover unless there is a group. Realization dawns
that he is but a small part of a great whole; that no personal
sacrifice is too great for preservation of the Fellowship. He
learns that the clamor of desires and ambitions within him
must be silenced whenever these could damage the group.
It becomes plain that the group must survive or the individual will not.
So at the outset, how best to live and work together as
groups became the prime question. In the world about us
we saw personalities destroying whole peoples. The struggle for wealth, power, and prestige was tearing humanity
apart as never before. If strong people were stalemated in
the search for peace and harmony, what was to become of
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our erratic band of alcoholics? As we had once struggled
and prayed for individual recovery, just so earnestly did we
commence to quest for the principles through which A.A.
itself might survive. On anvils of experience, the structure
of our Society was hammered out.
Countless times, in as many cities and hamlets, we reenacted the story of Eddie Rickenbacker and his courageous company when their plane crashed in the Pacific.
Like us, they had suddenly found themselves saved from
death, but still floating upon a perilous sea. How well they
saw that their common welfare came first. None might become selfish of water or bread. Each needed to consider the
others, and in abiding faith they knew they must find their
real strength. And this they did find, in measure to transcend all the defects of their frail craft, every test of
uncertainty, pain, fear, and despair, and even the death of
one.
Thus has it been with A.A. By faith and by works we
have been able to build upon the lessons of an incredible
experience. They live today in the Twelve Traditions of Alcoholics Anonymous, which—God willing—shall sustain
us in unity for so long as He may need us.

I say amen to unity and so does Adonai!

Top 24 Unity And Togetherness Quotes: Famous Quotes & Sayings About Unity And Togetherness

BO TORAH : EXODUS 10:1-13:16| PROPHETS : JEREMIAH 46:13-28| GOSPEL : JOHN 19:31-37


Welcome to this week’s Torah Portion! There is much to explore in this Torah portion. As I read  what our ancestors experienced in this particular Torah portion,  many memories of my own journey out of  darkness came to light. The process of getting free from the  bondage I was in took a long time. I didn’t have one of those “suddenly I was free” testimonies. Nope, I was not that fortunate! I suffered, I fought, I took one step forward and three back. I call that the recovery dance.

Like Pharaoh in our Torah portion, the enemy did not want me free to live life without  alcohol, drugs, sex and toxic relationships. Nope…he fought me hard…I claimed Philippians 1:6 many times  over the years, especially the times I relapsed on drugs/booze/prescription drugs to numb out the pain of being married to an abusive man.

finding messiah in bo, exodus 10:1-13:16

exodus 10:1-13:16, annual bo “go” outline

One thing I like about 12 step recovery communities, its how their support meetings are conducted. It is built on  a set of steps to freedom and also steps to building unity, which is the key. There are many truths we could learn from “those” people.  “Why do you put those people in quotes Laura Lee”, you may be asking…well because of the flack I have received for some of those in the Messianic community. You see, many get hung up on the triangle symbol used for Alcoholics Anonymous, Narcotics Anonymous, etc. not realizing that the beginning of the support group movement was based solely on scripture. That is why the steps work! If a person applies them.

And just like Yah using Moses to free His people, He has used the 12 steps to free people like me from bondage to  destructive lifestyles! Praise Adonai for the 12 steps of recovery!

***For more info, see the links provided at bottom of page!***

 

Exodus 13:1–16 (ESV) - Exodus 13:1–16 ESV - The LORD said to Moses,… | Biblia

Parashat Bo - Exodus 10:1-13:16 | Emet HaTorah

One of my favorite 12 step support programs is called Adult Children of Alcoholics and Dysfunctional Families. It isn’t about the drugs, alcohol, sex, porn, food, religion, money, shopping, etc. It is about escaping reality. It is all about numbing feelings of shame and pain. In ACA meetings we talk about learning how to love ourselves so we can love others properly! I mean, isn’t that what we are suppose to do? Love our neighbor AS we love ourselves?? Hmmmmm, with all the infighting, disrespect, puffed up pride and ego within the Messianic communities, maybe, just maybe, the root issue is that many of us DON’T love ourselves properly! Maybe, just maybe, many of us were raised in a home that was dysfunctional due to addictions, perfectionism and/or domestic abuse. Maybe….

If that is true for you, there is healing in Messiah!

I love the haftorah portion. It is another promise He has whispered in my ear, going directly to my broken heart…He will go with us…and our sons and daughters. Maybe I am the only one snot praying for my remaining son. I was snot praying for months for my oldest when I got that phone call from his father. The phone call every parent dreads…that my child is dead…

My oldest was chasing after Jesus (Yeshua) before his death…he realized that Jesus IS the truth and that we are living in the last days. He was chasing after his Savior with all he had. He tried to get out of whatever he got caught up in, but before he could get free, he was killed. The Father comforted me by letting me know through my sons best friend, that all those snot prayers I was driven to pray, the Father heard and answered. Sometimes a parents prayers are answered in ways we never would have imagined or wanted. Trust is hard at times. But, I believe one day, my son will be in the Kingdom! If you are a parent praying snot nosed prayers over seemingly hopeless situations, do not stop praying and trusting, no matter what it looks like!

John 19:31-37 The Curse and The Cure — HAMPTON ROADS CHURCH

Enjoy this weeks audio as I bring to you commentary from The Recovery Bible.

The following was written by someone wishing to remain anonymous….

I walked into my first Adult Children of Alcoholics Meeting (ACA) late—which is kind of ironic, given that I had been brought up to never be late. I spent the first 10 minutes of the meeting agitated about my lateness and what others would think of me. I think that’s all the confirmation I needed to know I was in the right place. Then I heard words spoken around the room that made the hairs on my arms stand on end. It was like I was in a room faced with 20 versions of myself.

Like my first AA meeting, while I wanted to run out of the room, something kept me rooted in my seat. I knew that I needed to be there—it was the next piece of the recovery puzzle.

Over the past five years of sobriety, my life has transformed; what was once a bare existence of working, using, and sickness, has become a life of my wildest dreams. I now live on the other side of the world, I have discovered talents that I didn’t even knew I had, and I have leveraged those talents to design a career most people dream of.

But, I was left with repetitive patterns of behavior in my life around relationships—particularly intimate relationships—that were destructive and harmful. I couldn’t understand how I had radically progressed from a life of nothing to a highly functioning life, yet still struggling in just this one area. Perhaps those most painful and traumatic area of all.

No amount of step work, or CBT, was touching the surface. I was struggling to cope and couldn’t understand why I acted like a five year old little girl in my relationships. She was frightened, terrified of rejection, needed constant validation, sought approval, was virtually incapable of asking for her needs to be met, and treated every parting of company like abandonment. I have spent my entire life reliving the abandonment of my father 34 years ago, in every relationship I had.

It has been suggested to me to seek either family of origin therapy—referring to the place we learned how to communicate, how to process emotions, ask for our needs to be met, and form our beliefs and values—or go to ACA, over the course of my recovery. I occasionally looked at the ACA fellowship meetings list, but kept putting it on the back burner. I’ll deal with that later, I’m not ready. I’d say. Then life took off and I thought I didn’t need it.

Until the next relationship; which always served as a reminder of how much I actually did need it. Each relationship turned up the volume of that reminder. Until it became too loud for me to ignore it anymore.

Co-founder of ACA, Tony A, defines Adult Children as follows: ‘An Adult Child is someone who responds to adult situations with self-doubt, self-blame, or a sense of being wrong or inferior, all learned from stages of childhood.” He goes on to say that without dealing with this issues, “we unknowingly operate with ineffective thoughts and judgements as adults. The regression can be subtle, but it is there, sabotaging our decisions and relationships.”

You are an adult child if you have lived in a childhood where alcoholism, addiction, abuse, mental illness, or other types of dysfunction existed within your family setting.

At the beginning of the meeting, a list is read called The Laundry List—this is a list of traits or characteristics of what they refer to as Adult Children. This is what made me shudder with identification:

  1. We became isolated and afraid of people and authority figures.
  2. We became approval seekers and lost our identity in the process.
  3. We are frightened by angry people and any personal criticism.
  4. We either become alcoholics, marry them or both, or find another compulsive personality such as a workaholic to fulfill our sick abandonment needs.
  5. We live life from the viewpoint of victims and we are attracted by that weakness in our love and friendship relationships.
  6. We have an overdeveloped sense of responsibility and it is easier for us to be concerned with others rather than ourselves; this enables us not to look too closely at our own faults, etc.
  7. We get guilt feelings when we stand up for ourselves instead of giving in to others.
  8. We became addicted to excitement.
  9. We confuse love and pity and tend to “love” people we can “pity” and “rescue.”
  10. We have “stuffed” our feelings from our traumatic childhoods and have lost the ability to feel or express our feelings because it hurts so much (Denial).
  11. We judge ourselves harshly and have a very low sense of self-esteem.
  12. We are dependent personalities who are terrified of abandonment and will do anything to hold on to a relationship in order not to experience painful abandonment feelings, which we received from living with sick people who were never there emotionally for us.
  13. Alcoholism is a family disease; and we became para-alcoholics and took on the characteristics of that disease even though we did not pick up the drink.
  14. Para-alcoholics are reactors rather than actors.

Oh my god, that is me! I screamed to myself. It was the most definitive list of my personality that I had ever heard. While I could use those characteristics as a measure of areas where I had improved in my life in the process of recovery—no longer needing others approval, finding recovery, working on certain co-dependent behaviors—I saw the deep need to look at this fundamental aspect of my being as a whole.

It offered a new found perspective to my repetitive behaviors and angst. It was a similar realization that you have in addiction when you discover that recovery isn’t about stopping taking drugs, it is about learning what led you to take the drugs in the first place. The drugs, or the behavior in this instance, are just the symptoms of a greater problem. The root of my problem, was the dysfunction I had grown up in and I carried that child into adulthood.

Perhaps the greatest struggle of pursuing this program of recovery is that I no longer align myself with a 12 step modality at this stage of my addiction recovery. It seems at odds to me to get help for these issues in a 12 step fellowship when I have made a conscious decision to move away from it. Yet, like with the first few years of my recovery, I can put aside my issues with the 12 steps, and try not make judgments until I have experienced this path of recovery and all that it has to offer with an open mind.

I can see that there is hope. ACA offers a safe place that I can find freedom to express my greatest hurt, pain, and fears. A place to free myself from the shame and blame of the past. Somewhere I will learn to no longer imprisoned by the traumatized child within me. I will recover the child within me, re-parent myself, learning to love and accept myself in the process. I know that I can heal this aspect of myself.

I know that this is exactly where I need to be, as challenging as that may be, because I don’t want the past to hold me back—that is recovery.

***here are some more resources for you!

https://torahportions.ffoz.org/torah-portions/

https://www.alephbeta.org/playlist/why-the-israelites-couldnt-eat-bread

Hebrew For Christians audio:  https://soundcloud.com/user-488868207/shavuah-tov-for-parashat-bo

https://www.aish.com/ci/s/Marijuana-and-Judaism-What-Does-Jewish-Law-Say-about-the-Subject.html

https://www.chabad.org/library/article_cdo/aid/818687/jewish/The-Source-of-Evil-Bo.htm

Newsletter One Part Two


January 05


Acting Purposefully

 “We have seen adult children use the principles of the Twelve Steps to handle family illness, despair, and death with amazing serenity and faith.” BRB p. 291

The beauty of the Steps is that they guide us in our recovery from having grown up in a dysfunctional home, providing us with a healthy spiritual base from which to live our lives. When we remain engaged with our recovery by attending meetings regularly and reaching out to other adult children, we maintain a level of spiritual fitness that will assist us in coping with the inevitable challenges we will face.

With strengthened spirits, we live from a solid foundation that will not collapse, even during times of crisis. Situations and events will come at us unexpectedly, and we will be presented with difficulties and painful circumstances – this is certain. Rather than reacting unconsciously and repeating unhealthy behavior patterns, we act purposefully while maintaining our peace. The Steps are the tools that help us navigate the uncharted territory that is our life. By continuing to apply what we have learned on a regular basis, we can face the trials of life with grace.

On this day I will apply the universal wisdom contained within the Twelve Steps to whatever problem I am facing.

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Feast of Tabernacles, 2020 High Springs, Florida, I participated in another deliverance ministry session. Pastor Gil drove for many miles from his home in Miami, Florida to assist those who wanted to get free from strongholds and “lassos”. Those brave enough to be honest of their struggles with the demonic came forward and received ministry and deliverance.

Feast of Tabernacles 2015 was my very first Sukkot. I met a woman who was instrumental in my journey to true freedom. She helped me detox from prescription medications by taking me into her own home and nursing me back to health. During my stay at her beautiful farmhouse, I read a book called Unloving by Henry Wright. I was drawn to the title as it defined how I felt. I had just left yet another abusive marriage and was desperate for healing. My friend suggested I attend Be In Health in Georgia…long story short, it WAS the Ruach HaKodesh leading me to go, so I did…and what I witnessed was people getting free from demons…

My next experience was at the congregation I was a part of in upstate New York. The pastor brought a deliverance team from the state of Florida to conduct a weekend deliverance ministry. The small church was packed. I went in the direction of the Ruach HaKodesh. I was overwhelmed when some of the people I knew and respected began to manifest different demons…over the course of two days, I saw many manifestations of demons…this totally broke any denial still lurking in my mind!

My eyes were opened. Wide. I could NOT unsee and inexperience what I personally witnessed of my own deliverance and those of the other folks. I knew the body of Messiah was in big trouble. And, in denial of the reality of the spirit realm. And, how these very demons are the things that are causing such division in the body of Messiah, the conflicts and domestic abuse, porn addiction, child abuse, etc. within His body!

This past weekend, I and a friend drove to Hollywood, Florida, to participate in a deliverance immersion held by Pastor Gil of Torah Deliverance Ministry located in Miami Florida. Many from his congregation united at Green Street Beach on a hot Shabbat morning.

I had sensed strongholds from my ancestry stemming from the occult/freemasonry. My great uncle was a great man, a Yale graduate, one of America’s leading American History Historians, a Professor at Yale University for many years, and an Oxford Cambridge Fellow. My other uncle was a Professor at Cornell University and a Yale man also I believe, also, I believe, another Yale grad. My great-grandmother graduated from Havard/Radcliffe. My cousin, involved in some very dark secret societies was also a big question mark for me.  Yes, I sensed some things from my ancestors was still in operation in my life…I had felt cursed since I was a young child. My life was very difficult and seemed to attract demonic attacks since I was very young…suicidal from the tender age of eight, sexual abuse and physical abuse the driving force behind years of self-medicating that trauma with drugs, booze, numerous toxic relationships,  eating disorder, and a number of other self-destructive behaviors.

So… during this deliverance session in the cool waters of Green Street Beach, Hollywood Florida, the deliverance team was able to target the demonic strongholds rooted in my ancestors’ disobedience and involvement in the occult…a deep deep anger arose in me…up and out, you demon of darkness!!! You do not belong in a child of the Most High!!! Those tormenting, harassing spirits had to flee in the mighty name of Yeshua!!!

In my 3o years of pursuing recovery and healing from childhood trauma and various addictions, I have had seasons of deliverance. One does not walk where I have walked without opening portals for demons…childhood abuse is a portal the enemy takes full advantage of. Spirits of fear, lust, rejection, bitterness, and other spirits enter in, creating a lifelong pattern of relationship issues. How do I know? Because that is my own story. And the story of many others. Like Mary Magdalene…some of us need deliverance.

What shocks me and frustrates me is that so many people who come into an understanding of His Torah, feast days, and Shabbat deny that demons are still an issue! Let me give you a recent personal experience:

I have recently been attacked by two women on the subject of divorce and also regarding Christian Counseling. I have been accused of being used by the enemy to harm people. But yet, these women, who do not even know me, accused me,  disrespected the boundaries I set and continued to harass me. One went so far as to jump on a live Facebook show hosted by a marriage and family therapist who is Torah pursuant demanding the therapist provide scriptures to prove that Yeshua allowed divorce and remarriage. After the show ended she began harassing and attacking both the therapist and I. So, here are two women, supposedly walking in His Word, attacking, accusing, demanding. This is spiritual abuse, this is not loving one’s neighbor as commanded in Torah! One even told me I needed to repent for being a Christian counselor and leading people astray! Funny, I have never even been a “Christian Counselor. I share this with you to show you the insanity of what is going on even within our own places where we turn for fellowship! And this is being allowed!

So, Laura Lee, how do you handle it? I cried out to Him, asking Him to show me if I AM wrong. Just as in the past when I have been attacked by others (this is not the first time with one of the women) He has always rallied around me and whispered in my ear His love and He has shown me their wrongness…and He has shown me in scripture truth…

I repent of my own anger, my own hurt emotions, and I pray for those who spit in my face and accuse me of doing evil.

Sorry for the rabbit trail…let’s get back on track…

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Isaiah 61

He came to set the captives free! He came not only healing the sick but Also casting out devils and He commissioned His disciples to do the same!!! Do you consider yourself His disciple? Then you may be commissioned to assist others in getting free! We all have a calling, we all have been given gifts and talents to be used in these last days!

But! It is highly recommended that one deals with their own log first! IE…get delivered first! Make sure you are walking clean before Him, walking in obedience before one takes on this kind of ministry! The enemy knows us by name and he knows every wound that has been inflicted in us because he was the one behind that wounding! These are the very things he uses against us in every area of our lives!

The Sons of Sceva

11 And God was doing extraordinary miracles by the hands of Paul, 12 so that even handkerchiefs or aprons that had touched his skin were carried away to the sick, and their diseases left them and the evil spirits came out of them. 13 Then some of the itinerant Jewish exorcists undertook to invoke the name of the Lord Jesus over those who had evil spirits, saying, “I adjure you by the Jesus whom Paul proclaims.” 14 Seven sons of a Jewish high priest named Sceva were doing this. 15 But the evil spirit answered them, “Jesus I know, and Paul I recognize, but who are you?” 16 And the man in whom was the evil spirit leaped on them, mastered all[a] of them and overpowered them, so that they fled out of that house naked and wounded. 17 And this became known to all the residents of Ephesus, both Jews and Greeks. And fear fell upon them all, and the name of the Lord Jesus was extolled. 18 Also many of those who were now believers came, confessing and divulging their practices. 19 And a number of those who had practiced magic arts brought their books together and burned them in the sight of all. And they counted the value of them and found it came to fifty thousand pieces of silver. 20 So the word of the Lord continued to increase and prevail mightily.

We live in the last day’s folks, time is short…the King IS coming!!! But first, there comes a time of great upheaval…many hearts will fail due to fear…Let us be strong in Him! Let us be about our Father’s business…let us get out of the boat and be water walking warriors filled with His Spirit…so filled with Him that we do those greater works He said we would do! Let us be His last day disciples!!!

Do not get me wrong…I do not follow Chabad, but I do not believe in throwing the baby out with the bathwater, but brother Judah can teach us a few things about the Torah and recovery from addictions…so please give some grace!

Is Unhappiness a Sin? – Ki Tavo

“Because you did not serve G‑d with joy and a happy heart…”—Deuteronomy 28:47.

In this week’s portion, we find a lengthy description of the dire consequences to be faced by G‑d‘s people should they fail to serve Him properly after entering the Land. The results for untoward behavior include: desolation, famine, war, illness and exile.

Among the transgressions which bring on all these troubles is unhappiness. Yes, unhappiness! “Because you did not serve G‑d with joy and a happy heart…”

But is being unhappy a sin? How can one be punished for a thing like that? If G‑d punishes people for being unhappy, that would rather seem like kicking a man when he’s down.

Happiness is a decision. And like all decisions, it has consequences these questions, however, only arise from a fundamental misunderstanding of what happiness is. We tend to see happiness as an indicator of outside conditions. If things are going well for us, we are happy. If things are rough, we are – or have cause to be – unhappy. The word itself implies that happiness is something that happens to us; that when we are happy, it’s due to good fortune. Conversely, whenever we are unhappy it is because we have caught a bad break and suffered some kind of mishap.

But G‑d tells us that this is not so. Happiness is a decision. And like all decisions, it has consequences. And G‑d does not punish people for being unhappy. He warns us about the trouble that unhappiness can bring.

We alcoholics and addicts can testify to the disastrous consequences of unhappiness. Why else did we keep coming back for more of a beating from alcohol other than the fact that we were fundamentally unhappy? We found life to be a frequent source of disappointment and aggravation. It was never good enough to make us feel content and at ease. We were “men and women… [who] are restless, irritable and discontented unless they can again experience the sense of ease and comfort which comes at once by taking a few drinks.” (Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th Edition, p. xxvii)

Our spiritual program of recovery gives us the tools to change ourselves into people who are comfortable with life. It teaches us how to be happy; and that our happiness is not a result of what happens, but of the ideas, attitudes and actions we choose. If we do not use the tools of recovery, we find ourselves quickly growing weary and agitated with life. We steep in self-pity and rage and, eventually, we relapse. Then there is the resulting chaos, with the possible end results of destruction and death.

So, is unhappiness a sin? What difference does it make what you call it? The result is the same.

As for happiness, there is no limit to the blessings that being happy can bring.

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Voices…To Heed or Ignore?

 

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We sojourners, wandering through this experience called life, often can recall conversations with others that we did not heed…later regretting it, thinking, “so THAT is what they meant, augh, I should have listened!”. Or, am I the only one that has said that countless times throughout my 60 some years of traversing? Moshe did his best to communicate Yah’s instructions…Yah’s warnings, Yah’s encouragements. I do not think the reason for the tribe’s rebellion rested on Moshe…no…I am pretty sure it was the hearts of the people…stiffnecked and rebellious Israel!

Now, more than any time in history (in my humble opinion) is it imperative that we shema His instructions and have a relationship with the Shephard…be led by His Spirit…and be able to discern the hissing of the snakes…we are walking in a wilderness, coming out of Egypt just like our ancestors, but this time, oh! THIS TIME, we gotta get it right! I am not talking about legalistic hoop-jumping, no! I am talking about an authentic, intimate relationship with the True Shephard, the Lover of your soul…

Can you hear Him beckoning you? Can you hear the voices crying in the 21st-century wilderness “MAKE WAY FOR THE KING”!

SHEMA ISREAL!!! HEED HIS VOICE!!!

Moshe may have blown it at the end of his life, preventing him from entering into the Promised Land, but he will be in the New Jerusalem! Even that was part of Yah’s plan…I do not know about you, but I do not want to blow it! I want ears to hear and eyes to see and a heart that is pure and dedicated to my King!

 

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I ofter wondered how those who witnessed the demise of their fellow tribes felt. Did it make them want to run away from the Creator, from The Deliverer, or did it encourage them on the path of obedience?  I wondered if they were traumatized and if He comforted them as a Shephard comforts a frightened lamb. We live in a world that has been traumatized since the fall. and these days we need all the comfort we can get from The Comforter! And, we also need to be His hands and feet, and also His voice, providing comfort to the widows and the orphans, those who are poor and needy…be the hands of Messiah! Bring comfort to those in need, those in your sphere of influence…go into the byways and highways, seeking the lost sheep!

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As I pondered this week’s Torah portion, I was led to Ezekiel 1-3. I have been led here over the years quite a few times, usually when I am about to speak to a group of people. It is as if Yah is preparing me for the rejection and insults. I also pondered a conversation from a ZOOM bible study I listened in on that discussed the issue of how women should act in the body of the Messiah. I was disappointed with the verbiage I both heard and read. The bible teacher did not want to hear anyone else’s opinion unless it validated his. He would not listen to any woman brave enough to challenge him,  unless they, too, believed in women being submissive to men…only a couple of folks mentioned the domestic abuse taking place and that men needed to be taught how to love and respect their wives. I mentioned that Hebrew scholars understand the Hebrew culture, content, and root words, which conveys a clearer picture of women’s role, design, and function. Has anyone heard of Ezer Kenagdo I wrote…no one even acknowledged my question.  I felt unheard.

I think Yeshua felt unheard, as did other voices speaking the truth.

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I wanted to share with you this article written by Tekoa Manning.

Madmen

 

 

This message concerns the Holy One’s prophets who were deemed madmen and at times labeled babbling fools. These were peculiar men. These were men whose voices boomed at times. Men who called down fire and shut up the heavens. Men on missions. I will tie this message to the 9th of AV and, as always, try and end with hope. 

Again and again the LORD, the God of their fathers, sent word to His people through His messengers because He had compassion on them and on His dwelling place. But they mocked the messengers of God, despising His words and scoffing at His prophets, until the wrath of the LORD against His people was stirred up beyond remedy.

–II Chronicles 36:16

At times, Prophets see things they wish they had never seen. They hear words that terrorize them. What the prophets of old seen and knew was more than they could bear. They called it the burden of the word of the Lord. In II Kings, there is a shocking story that is heart-wrenching to read. Elisha has come to visit a king from Damascus who is very sick and he will give this King a strange message.

“Elisha came to Damascus. Now Ben-hadad, the king of Aram, was sick, and it was told to him, saying, “The man of God has come here.” And the king said to Hazael, “Take a gift in your hand and go to meet the man of God, and inquire of the LORD by him, saying, ‘Will I recover from this sickness?‘” So Hazael went to meet him and took a gift in his hand, even every kind of good thing of Damascus, forty camels’ loads; and he came and stood before him and said, “Your son Ben-hadad king of Aram has sent me to you, saying, ‘Will I recover from this sickness?’” Then Elisha said to him, “Go, say to him, ‘You will certainly recover, but the LORD has shown me that he will certainly die.”

–II Kings 9:7-10

Elisha tells Hazael to speak to Ben-Hadad and tell him he will recover from his sickness, but he will also die. Elisha is a Seer and what he sees causes him to weep in front of a man standing in silence. Hazael thinks to himself, Who is this madman standing before me? This madman burning holes through me with his eyes as if he can read my thoughts. Indeed, Elisha stares so long the high-ranking official grows very uncomfortable. And then the Prophet begins to weep. Elisha, a man given a double portion of Elijah’s anointing groans intensely.

“And he (Elisha) stared steadily at him until Hazael was embarrassed, and then the man of God wept.” 

Elisha is weeping over what He sees, for he is a Seer. 

Jeremiah is weeping over what he sees.

“Oh, that my head were a spring of water, and my eyes a fountain of tears! I would weep day and night over the slain daughter of my people.” (Jeremiah 9:1) Jeremiah saw so much he was deemed the weeping prophet. What would it feel like to warn people year after year that destruction was coming if they did not change their heart condition, only to be mocked and labeled a false prophet?

 

In the Gospels, we read that Yeshua wept over what he seen. The passage begins with Yeshua riding on a donkey. The people are shouting, ‘Blessed is the Sovereign who is coming in the Name of יהוה!’ Peace in heaven and esteem in the highest!” The Pharisees tell Yeshua to rebuke His taught ones. Yeshua responds, “I say to you that if these shall be silent, the stones would cry out.”

The stones indeed cry out, and every stone falls at the future destruction of the 2nd temple. The passage says that after this, Yeshua wept.  “And when he drew near and saw the city, he wept over it, saying, “Would that you, even you, had known on this day the things that make for peace! But now they are hidden from your eyes. For the days will come upon you, when your enemies will set up a barricade around you and surround you and hem you in on every side and tear you down to the ground, you and your children within you. And they will not leave one stone upon another in you, because you did not know the time of your visitation.” (Luke 19:41-44)

Yeshua, like Jeremiah sees the destruction of Jerusalem. When his disciples expound on the majestic temple Herod had built. Yeshua tells them it will all fall. No stone left upon another. Meditate on that.

Yeshua warns the people that they did not know the time of their visitation. Can each generation miss their visitation? I think so. We need men and women who will weep. Men who will weep in front of men with titles and accolades. Men who will weep in front of men who are scribes, leaders, high ranking officials. OH, WE NEED MADMEN TODAY! Men who are so grieved over what they see and hear that they weep. They warn. They cry out like rocks. They walk the streets and inner cities. They run for offices in government. Men who have action.

A rugged prophet is standing before Hazael, weeping. It does not matter if the king has sent 40 camels laden with gifts, and Hazael thinks he is only standing in front of this man to get one answer for King Ben-hadad. Hazael, like all of us, if we were in his position, becomes quite uncomfortable to see such a man stand and weep. A man with a hairy mantle with a voice that pierces the soul. The passage states, “Elisha stared at him with a fixed gaze until Hazael felt ashamed. Then the man of God began to weep.” When Hazael asked, “Why is my lord weeping?” he answered, “Because I know the evil that you will inflict on the men of Israel: their strongholds you will set on fire, their young men you will slay with the sword, their little ones you will dash into pieces, and their pregnant ones you will rip open.”

No one wants to know or see this. No one wants to see the destruction that is coming on a nation and a people, their own people.

Then Hazael said, “But what is your servant, who is but a dog, that he should do anything of such magnitude?” Elisha answered, “Adonai has shown me that you will be king over Aram.” Then Haza’el departed from Elisha and went to his master, who asked him, “What did Elisha say to you?” He answered, “He told me that you would surely recover.” But the next day, he (Haz’ael) took a thick cloth, soaked it in water, and spread it on his face, so that he died. Then Hazael became king in his place.”

The God of Israel has His prophet anoint a man who will do horrific things to His own people. Judgment has begun. Haza’el of Syria and Yehu of Israel will run swiftly shedding blood. And the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob has not only allowed it but has also orchestrated much of it.  He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. However, Adonai is long suffering wanting none to perish.

Oh, the weeping that must have continued for Elisha over what he had seen. Are there any prophets today weeping? Any lamenting Jeremiah’s? Any Deborah’s preparing for battle? Are there any men who look upon America and weep? Any men who weep for God’s chosen people Israel? Are there still men and women who will weep over their own condition and use action to change it? I pray we begin to see the Father’s true prophets arise and weep with anguish to warn and awaken a people, for I fear if we don’t, we may see worse than Covid. May we grieve over what grieves YHVH.

Shortly after this story concerning Haza’el, we read of another man who is anointed. His name is Jehu. A prophet from the company of the prophets is sent with an assignment. He is a prophet labeled a madman (shagah). “a wild fellow” running in haste with a vial of oil. Oh, if we had such men today. Men who had no business cards, no business suits, no ministries with itching ear words, but men on a mission. Men who were deemed strange. Men with the voice of Adonai coming out of their nostrils. Nostrils or nose – ‘aph (עף) – is the same word for anger and wrath and a sign of disgust and indignation. The Father was anointing men out of His anger. We do not see or hear of these prophets much today.

Why would HaShem save a people consumed with idolatry? Infused with baseless hatred? Do we need saved? Oh, yes, but I do not think it will look the way many envision. Will the Father anoint a Hazael and a Jehu to rid evil from Washington D.C without it affecting us? Many called Trump a Jehu. He was a man on a mission and during his term we also saw much destruction, riots, fires, and deaths in our nation. Men handed out bricks. Men were paid to destroy and cause division, but who sent them? Elisha anointed Hazael because the Father told him he would be king. The Father also showed him that this man would bring harm to the Israelites, set fire to their fortified places, kill their young men with the sword, dash their little children, and rip open their pregnant women. Horrific! The Father is bringing judgement. This is not satan. The God who sent a flood, the God who sent plagues, the God who sent famine, and the God who sent his servant Nebuchadnezzar is the same God on the throne at this moment in 2021.

Concerning the anointing of Jehu: Elisha does not anoint him but gives another prophet the strange assignment:

“Strap up your cloak, take this flask of oil in your hand, and go to Ramoth-gilead. When you arrive there, look out there for Jehu son of Jehoshaphat son of Nimshi. Then go in, get him to rise up from among his fellows, and bring him to an inner room. 3 Then take the flask of oil and pour it on his head and say, thus says Adonai: ‘I have anointed you king over Israel.’ Then open the door and flee—don’t wait around.”

The prophet is told to flee after anointing such a man as Jehu. Jehu will waste no time destroying the house of Ahab and Jezebel. He will drive like a madman after the anointing oil is poured forth, and he will get swiftly to work at destroying the house of Ahab. He is anointed to destroy!

“Thus says Adonai, God of Israel: I have anointed you king over the people of Adonai, over Israel. 7 So you will strike down the house of Ahab your master, that I may avenge the blood of My servants the prophets, and the blood of all the servants of Adonai shed by Jezebel. 8 For the whole house of Ahab will perish, and I will cut off from Ahab every male, slave or free, in Israel. 9 I will make the house of Ahab like the house of Jeroboam son of Nebat and like the house of Baasa, son of Ahijah. 10 The dogs will eat Jezebel in the field of Jezreel, and there will be none to bury her.” Then he opened the door and fled.

Then Jehu came out to the officers of his master, and one asked him, “Is everything all right? Why did this crazy fellow come to you?” He said to them, “You know the man and his babbling.”

They knew the prophets. The prophets looked different. They spoke differently. They had a school/guild. They spent time listening to the thin silence Elijah heard when he had fled to a cave. They prayed together. They were distinct. 

A madman, a babbling man, a man in such haste comes with only one message. “Thus says the Lord of Hosts/ Adonai Tzva’ot.”  When will His prophets gather again with men and women who have no leprosy of Naaman clinging to them? No prophets with the desire of Gehazi who ran after Naaman’s chariot and lied to obtain wealth.

However, In Biblical times, the prophets were honored and given gifts. Ben-Hadad sent forty camels carrying gifts of fruit, nuts, berries, clothing, and his servant holding more than likely silver, gold, or money. A person would not inquire of a prophet without a gift. Saul was pressed to see the prophet about his fathers donkeys who had fled but told his servant he had no gift for the prophet. His servant offered to give and so they went to the Seer, Samuel. Today this has been abused so severely by the prosperity gospel; not many bring a blessing or even honor to those in leadership. Curiously, King Ben-Hadad  does.

Today, we must pray for the Voice of Elijah and Elisha to come forth. We must pray for the 5-fold (Ephesians 4) to be put in place. 

Jeremiah exclaims, “An appalling and horrible thing has happened in the land; the prophets prophesy falsely, and my people love to have it so.” (5:30-31). We need to expose this as Jeremiah did.

We have the power of Messiah in us. Messiah in us is the hope of glory. We are living stones. Our bodies joined together is one temple–His Body. Our temple is to be filled with His Ruach HaKodesh (Holy spirit). Our stones need unification, and we need to be full of hesed/ loving-kindness, mercy, compassion, and able to take and give correction. The prophet brings correction. If the prophets you are flocking to never correct you or use words that convict you, I would surmise they are no prophets at all, but beastly false ones.

 

Let us take our tent pegs and stretch them out as we build and labor to bring in the harvest and to build His House. The 9th of Av is to one day be a joyful day. The Kingdom of Heaven is at hand. We must walk and act in this manner. We need the manifestations of the Spirit of a Holy Father in the hearts and minds of men. Some people listened to the voice of Jeremiah and their lives were spared from death. Their children survived and escaped. Their name was carried forth. What are we doing right now that is effecting future generations? How can we weep not only for our Nation but our own households? And the person staring back at us in the mirror?

My grandfather who was born in the late 1800’s was a farmer raising 12 children in KY. He fed his children by the sweat of his brow and they worked right beside him in the field. He watched two sons go off to war to fight Hitler’s regime and he saw them both return safe. Robert Elmer Loy died when I was a baby. I learned later on that he was also a musician with a degree in music. I leave you with a song he wrote and published in a hymnal. Master, Here I Am, Send Me.

 

 

 

Verse by Verse - Luke 3:15-38 - YouTube

I do draw from brig brother Judah at times, here is an article was written by a Rabbi in recovery. Take what you want and leave the rest!

How Big is Your Higher Power? – Va’etchanan

“…There is nothing else besides Him…The L-rd is G‑d in heaven above, and upon the earth below; there is nothing else”—Deuteronomy 4:35; 39.

In this week’s Torah reading we are told twice in very similar terms that there is nothing but G‑d. These verses do not just mean to negate the existence of any other deity or higher power. What these verses tell us is that there is nothing that exists except for G‑d. G‑d is the only existence.

A question arises. If there is only G‑d, is the world an illusion?

Jewish teaching insists that our world is not an illusion, but neither is it an independent entity. To believe that the world is something separate, an entity unto itself, would be to accept that G‑d is not really everything. This would assume that He is one thing and that the world is another thing. In truth, however, there is only One thing. As the Baal Shem Tov, founder of the Chassidic movement, said, “All is G‑d and G‑d is all.” G‑d is not only the Master and Creator of the world, He is the world. He is everything.

The merchant could not help but to state the bottom line—that G‑d is all there is. Indeed, the central prayer of Judaism, the Shema, states, “Hear, O Israel, the L-rd is our G‑d, the L-rd is One.” This does not just mean that there is only one G‑d, but that G‑d is “One”—an absolute Unity precluding all and any other existence besides Him.

Almost three hundred years ago in Russia, there lived a Jew, an ardent spiritual practitioner, who happened to be a lumber merchant by trade. One year, when tallying the annual accounts, he found himself writing on the bottom line: “TOTAL: Ein od milvado—”There is nothing else besides Him.” So real to him was this notion of G‑d’s complete “everything-ness,” that the lumber merchant could not help but to state the bottom line – even on his tally sheet – that G‑d is all there is.

There is an epilogue to this story. When a friend heard of what happened, he criticized the mystically-inclined lumber merchant for his absentmindedness, remarking, “There is a time for meditating upon the absolute oneness of G‑d, and there is a time for business. Belief is not a license to be careless in one’s practical dealings.”

The lumber merchant replied, “If one knew that during meditation, a businessman was thinking of the fair in Leipzig, nobody would be the least bit taken aback. So why should it be considered such an offense if during business he slips into thinking about G‑d?”

Those of us who recover from addiction, have come to see the need to apply our belief in G‑d to all aspects of life. This concept probably relates rather well to the lumber merchant. To quote:

“When we became alcoholics, crushed by a self-imposed crisis we could not postpone or evade, we had to fearlessly face the proposition that either G‑d is everything or else He is nothing. G‑d either is or He isn’t. What was our choice to be?” (Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th ed., p. 53)

The program does not dictate which Higher Power to believe in. The program does not favor one or any official theology. But it does tell us clearly that the One who has the power to help us recover from addiction is “everything.”

One can call G‑d whatever one wishes, which may be especially helpful if one was soured by negative religious experiences in the past. Ultimately, this idea of choosing your own concept of G‑d may be pure semantics—a rather unimportant word game, if you will: what real difference does it make if we call it “G‑d” or “Higher Power” or “the ultimate force,” etc.? As the wise old rabbi told the young, self-proclaimed atheist, “Son, the god you don’t believe in, I don’t believe in either.”

In any case, the Jewish concept of G‑d – if you are interested to know – is that people, places and things do not exist by themselves. G‑d is not just the Maker and Manager of all—He is the All.

He is not just a higher power. He is the Only Power. He is Everything.

Another great read!

https://messilife.com/f/read-the-warning-label-yom

Numbers 22:2-25:9/Micah 5:6-6:8/Romans 11:25-32

 


Rabbit trail - Homeschool Legacy

Well, as usual, we are going down some rabbit trails this week…this week’s Torah portion has much to glean from! This is one of my favorite “T.P.’s” Every Torah cycle I am amazed at how blatant the rebellion is, the total disregard for His Word, His Ways, and blatant audacity! I just can’t help but shake my head thinking “how on earth could these people be so stupid?”

Rabbit trail……….

How does one develop an addiction? What is the nature of addictions? Those things that perhaps some of us find ourselves battling perhaps were once a way of coping with stress. These very things over time can become deeply entrenched strongholds/addictions. I wonder if some coping “skills” could very well be a disqualifier from not only winning the race but also from running the last few yards of the race…(we are seeing the finish line approaching!)

Many of us are plum-worn out! We have grown weary and some of us are so stressed that we are falling into the default setting for coping! Oh, brothers and sisters! We must not grow weary of well-doing…we need to keep cheering one another on as we see the finish line ahead of us…remember, it’s a “we” program! We are in this together, but I cannot run your race and you cannot run mine! However, we can run it together!!!! So, let’s look at this week’s Torah Portion and then look at how it can be applied to our lives in the here and now!

I like using genograms when I am helping someone connect the dots from their own family tree. Many times we can see a pattern of not only addictions but also dysfunctionality in our own lives…and to visually see the who, how, and why’s…for me, it helped me to let go of the self-condemnation and begin to forgive myself, and my other family members…remember, we are in this together!

PPT - Genograms PowerPoint Presentation, free download - ID:1725631

I found this genogram on a couple of sites pertaining to this Torah Portion.

 

Parashat Balak - The Curses of Laban

Deir 'Alla inscription and the historical Balaam son of Beor | Joshua and Israel's Colourful Judges

The adversary got Isreal to curse itself through sexual sin…blatant sexual sin and rebellion against the Most High! Is he doing that in your life? If so, how? I am praying for you, and for me too!

 

Disqualified from the race by cursing oneself!

There are many warnings in the scriptures about disqualifying ourselves…

You Can Disqualify Yourself from Leadership, Here's 6 Reasons How - Live Salted

 

Does 1 Corinthians 9:27 teach that you can lose your salvation?

10 Scriptures about Health |

 

8 Bible Verses on Exercise {Add Worship to Your Workouts}

In the rooms of 12 step meetings, we say a drug is a drug is a drug…

Simply put…it is not about the substance one ingests or which process addiction one is obsessed with and acting out…how do you cope?

 

Process Addictions | Prescott House

In other words… it’s not the cocaine, it’s not the champagne, it’s not the Mad Dog 20/20, it’s not the pornography, it’s not the work, it’s the insanity behind it, the pain underneath it all…

I was wreckless, you were free.: "We stopped looking for monsters under the bed when we realised they were inside of us."

Maybe you are asking “Why would people do such stupid things?”

Why is one destroying their health? Defiling His temple? When did it begin? What happens when one ingests whatever it is?

10+ Inspiring Quotes for Addicts and Those Who Love Them - The Liberty Ranch

And the how…how to break free…

First…we admit…we admit…we ADMIT, CONFESS…

Alcoholics Anonymous AA

 

we are out of control, can’t stop, don’t want to stop, don’t know how to stop…

we come out of denial about the unmanageability in our lives…

we admit the insanity of it all…

Insanity Of Addiction. Dara Drug & Alcohol Rehabilitation Thailand.

then, we surrender to Yah our Creator…we admit defeat…

 

Paulosophia • Paul E. Martin's Personal Blog • Page 3 of 58 •

 

then we take a fearless moral inventory of our lives…

Pin on Woorksheets

then we share that with a safe person…

then we prepare to have all these character defects removed…

Clinging to Character Defects - Harvest Community Church - Eugene, Oregon

 

then we humbly ask Him to remove all these shortcomings…

 

Wallet card: 7th Step Prayer - Choices Books & Gifts

then we make a list of all persons we had harmed…

AA Steps 7 9 Presentation

then we make amends to persons on that list, including ourselves

12Step.org - Quality Information and Tools for a 12 Step Program of Recovery

then we take a daily inventory and when wrong promptly admit it

Step 1 through 12 Prayers

 

then we every day seek His face, seek His will for our lives and ask Him for the power to do it

11th Step Meditation (morning) - YouTube

then we can come alongside others, carrying His message of the full gospel of His complete shalom

 

Episode 47: Step 12 with Benn and John – AA Beyond Belief

 

WHEW!!! Wow! That rabbit trail took us on a journey I did not expect~ but, do you see how the 12 steps of recovery are the way of the Master? Do you see how the 12 steps are NOT as some would say…witchcraft, occult, and whatever else they can come up with to dissuade people from pursuing a path of recovery? Brothers and sister, the hour is very late and we have much to do! Many of us have much in our own lives that need to be addressed. We are in a race, and these sins that so easily beset us could very well disqualify us from obtaining the  Prize! The rooms of recovery are for anyone who wants to get clean, sober, and ready to face that man or woman in the mirror.

In my search to bring, you, the reader, a Torah based resource for “recovery minded” understanding of our weekly Torah portions, the resources are very slim to none…it seems that there are very few Messianics in recovery, therefore, I do utilize big brother Judah’s resources…so, as we say in the rooms of recovery, take what you want and leave the rest!

 

Instincts – Balak

“And the people began to go astray after the daughters of Moab“—Numbers 25:1.

The name of this week’s Torah reading, Balak, refers to the name of the Moabite king who reigned prior to the Israelites‘ entry into the Land of Israel. Daunted by the divine protection enjoyed by the nation of Israel, Balak sought the advice of the wicked prophet, Balaam, to aid him in devising a plan to thwart Israel. After several unsuccessful attempts to curse the Israelites, Balaam told Balak, “Come, I will advise you…” (Numbers 24:14). Our sages explain that Balaam advised Balak that no strategy would be effective against the Israelites so long as they were connected to G‑d, but that if one could lure them to turn away from G‑d, then they would become vulnerable to their enemies.

Balak and Balaam thus devised an elaborate scheme which called for the Moabite and Midianite women to entice the Israelites. They successfully seduced many Israelite men and even led them to worship idols. They thereby separated themselves from G‑d and forfeited their divine protection as Balaam had predicted. It seems that Balaam knew what many of us have learned in recovery—that it is the pursuit of gratifying our most basic instincts that disrupts our natural connectedness with G‑d.

Whenever we choose to selfishly pursue any kind of instinctive drive, we separate ourselves from G‑dIt is particularly interesting that Balaam specifically chose this specific form of gratification as the lure. It is a desire and instinct that draws us into self-will and away from the will of G‑d; no instinct is more powerful or more deeply rooted than our physical, emotional, and mental drive for sexual gratification. This drive touches upon almost everything that is dear to our ego—self-esteem, the desire to be accepted, emotional security and so on.

But one ought not derive a puritanical message from this story—that intercourse is evil and provokes divine wrath. To do so would be to miss the point entirely. The point is that whenever we choose to selfishly pursue any kind of instinctive drive, we separate ourselves from G‑d. The sex urge, as it were, just happens to be one of those things – or perhaps the thing – that exemplifies the potential of our own will to disrupt order and harmony in our lives. Recovery helps us to subordinate our instincts to G‑d’s will and allow them to take their proper place in our lives.

Giving our life and our will over to the care of G‑d, as our program suggests, can be frightening. We worry that perhaps G‑d won’t take care of us exactly as we would like Him to. In building our case for self-will, we may even point to all the problems we have even in sobriety. Many of us may even argue that G‑d has at one time or another ‘turned His back’ on us.

But our reading this week tells us that precisely the opposite is true. If we find that G‑d is absent from our lives, we should ask ourselves where it was that we turned our back on Him and not the other way around. Did we make a decision somewhere along the line to take care of ourselves rather than to let G‑d do the job? Did we feel that if we left things up to G‑d, He wouldn’t do exactly what we wanted? If we look honestly at ourselves and the choices we have made, we will see that it is we who rashly chose to part ways with Him if only to be free for a while to run after more of what we want.

Fortunately, however, it is our very problem that holds for us a solution. Nothing but our own will can upset the natural state of G‑d’s constant care for us and it is the surrender of our will to His that restores the natural order, allowing G‑d to determine what is best for us so that we may always receive the help and care that we need.

Rebuilding Your Temple

A Poem of Destruction and Rebuilding, Addiction and Recovery

I have polluted Your temple
Where my soul resides,
With food and drink,
With pills and passion;

I have filled my mouth with words
Of hate and jealousy,
And my heart with feelings
Of fear and despair.

I have denied my illness,
And given into craving;
I am helpless,
Without Your power and Your love.

Rebuild my walls of hope,
Restore my resolution,
Lead me, step by step,
Into Your Holy Place,

That I may enter into recovery
Filled with Your presence,
Hour by hour,
One day at a time.

https://www.chabad.org/library/article_cdo/aid/699874/jewish/Instincts-Balak.htm

 

https://www.alephbeta.org/playlist/lesson-from-king-balak-of-moab

https://www.hebrew4christians.com/Scripture/Parashah/parashah.html#loaded